# ON CANCER
For several years, I watched someone very close to me go through cancer.
Over that time, so many conventional and alternative approaches were tried that it is difficult to remember them all now.
Back then, I desperately wanted to understand: Why does this happen? Where is the cause?
I searched for answers, but I think at that point I simply was not yet able to see what I can see today.
Looking back now, I find myself thinking not only about the physical dimension of illness, and not only about psychosomatics.
I am interested in a deeper question — the direction of a person’s life itself.
Where are you going?
Are you living your own life?
Are you expressing what is truly within you?
Is there integrity between what your Soul feels, where your Spirit is moving, and how your Body is living?
For me, one thing has become increasingly clear: it is deeply important to move onto your own path — to unfold your potential, to express your abilities and talents in the world, rather than living entirely through other people’s scripts, expectations and demands.
I am not saying that cancer appears because someone is “living the wrong life.” That would be too strong and unsupported a conclusion.
But I do believe that questions of meaning, inner integrity and life direction can be a very important layer of human experience — including when someone is facing a serious illness.
And if today I were beside someone going through cancer, then alongside medical care I would invite them to look here as well:
Why am I living?
What in my life is truly mine?
What have I not allowed myself to express for a long time?
Where do I actually want to go?
Not as a way to “cure cancer.”
But as a way not to postpone meeting one’s own life.
I also have other personal observations — for example, a sense of certain age thresholds, around 42 and 50, when for some people questions of meaning, realization and life direction become especially intense.
But I do not see this as a medical pattern, and certainly not as a universal rule.
These are only my observations and an attempt to make sense of what I have lived through.
I do not claim this as truth.